I started this blog to help me make an adventure out of growing up. However, as time rolls on, it’s not an adventure, it’s a nightmare. I don’t know exactly why I feel this way. As my birthday approaches, along with graduation and all other grown up events again, I get more anxious, more scared. And I don’t even know what for. I can’t exactly name what is bothering me except growing up.
I keep saying to myself that I don’t remember going insane being part of the requirements to grow up.
This week I’m off of school, and every day if I go to do some homework or something productive. I get extremely anxious and scared. I don’t know why, and I’m partly ashamed to be blogging about this right now. Sometimes I feel like I’m being ridiculous or pathetic. Am I? Shouldn’t I be prepared for this?
Through all of this I’m becoming more dependent on God. The verse my Bible Group has been studying this week, Matthew 11:28-30, has really helped me. All this growing up and worrying about college is a huge burden and has tired me out, but I am learning to give it to God. God is the only one that can calm me down when I start to freak out.
God will get me through growing up. He will make it an adventure, because He knows the way.